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Thursday, June 30, 2005
flowers
today the fu gui hua (prosperity plant?) was in full bloom... took pictures to commemorate that. we've never had so many flowers at a time. and this is i think only the second time we had flowers... after having the plant since we moved here (i think it's been six years already!) hope it'll continue to blossom. i was just wondering whether there is a season for them to flower cos i certainly see lots of people's fu gui hua flowering recently. but i know there's a neighbour staying above my grandma's house whose plant i've never seen without a flower... and i go there almost every week.

Here's a quiz i did...



















Your #1 Match: ISFJ




The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.


Your #2 Match: ISFP




The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.


Your #3 Match: INFJ




The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.


Your #4 Match: INFP




The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.


Your #5 Match: ESFJ




The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.
A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.
You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.
You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.

You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.



What's Your Personality Type?
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
Hitting the sack...
i've never been so tired ever since i stopped working... haha. think it's not just today... it's a kind of stretched-over-some-days thing. starting from thursday, i think. my parents were flying on an early morning flight, to hong kong, on friday. i felt that even though it's a waste of money for us to send them off at the airport (cos have to take a cab back... considering they have to take a cab there too), i should at least be nice and send them off at home i.e. say bye when they're leaving. knowing that on slacker days when i have no reason to get up early (e.g. no work, no school, no activities etc) i'll just keep hitting the snooze button until i'm so irritated by it that i can't go back to sleep, i decided that the best way to ensure i'll manage to be there when they leave would be not to sleep on thursday night.

keeping awake was easy and surprisingly, refreshing. i always got that feeling when i had to stay up late to cram for tests... it's sort of like i can't fall asleep after some time, usually around 1am i think. actually that's just an 'illusion' kind of feeling... the next day i'll be ready to drop dead by the afternoon. hmmm so i entertained myself by listening to my cds, starting from 'B'... Bach. listened to his english suites, orchestral suites, keyboard concertos 1,2,4 and preludes and fugues. then it was time for them to go off. by then i was too awake to go back to sleep but i couldn't do anything cos my brother was still sleeping... unless i want to practise with the 'neighbour-friendly' pedal, but i really think it's not a very effective way to practise. plus, doesn't it just feel creepy to be practising at such unearthly hours?

friday was quite terrible... started feeling lethargic by late morning and i totally wasted lots of practice time by stoning around! sigh, it just explains why i played so horribly at class lesson today. so i decided to sleep early on friday, so that i can concentrate properly today. because of that, i didn't read kk's message till this morning... she was asking me what time the class lesson starts. i woke up at 5 am... (my brother had an early morning appointment with the dentist in hougang to sort of check on his braces, and i didn't want him to oversleep) how do i tell kk that the lesson is at 10 at this time?! but i messaged her anyway and hoped that she'd wake up. later she told me she thought the class lesson would take place in the evening (as it has usually been) and that she only practised at 7 plus this morning after she woke up from a bad dream and read my message. oh no!

and so today's class lesson was bad. cos of my lack of practice, i screwed up all the running passages in the left hand... this is really my fault la, i knew i wasn't going to nail it but i put off practising them until this morning. cos of my lack of concentration, i mixed up a later part of szymanowski with the front... and ended up not being able to join with the next bar. but what to do, i just jumped straight on to the next bar. bleah. i couldn't even hear the sound i was producing because i was too busy trying to think of what notes came next and trying to salvage all my screw-ups. terrible!

after class lesson, adeline, shaun, kk and i ate lunch at burger king... and then adeline, kk and i decided to go for a masterclass by Peter Vinograde at the esplanade. it was free admission, but we had to hang around the recital studio to see if there are vacancies when the registered participants are 'absent 15 mins prior to start time'. fortunately, we got to watch it. both pianists were good, but the first was much better. sighz... if only i could play at like half their standard. ok, cannot set such low targets... perhaps 60-70%?? Peter Vinograde was very detailed and he had so many things to say and teach that there just wasn't enough time.

before the masterclass we went to the library cos there was lots of time to kill... i borrowed szymanowski played by dennis lee (wow, adeline is my lucky star, she found it! so hard to find szymanowski cds...), beethoven's overtures played by Chamber Orchestra of Europe conducted by Nikolaus Harnoncourt (ms ching once told me to listen to it, but i never got down to buying it or searching for it in the library, though i have the same orchestra and conductor's box set of beethoven's symphonies), bach's keyboard concertos 3,5,6,7 played by murray perahia and Academy of St. Martin in the Fields (same series as my bach keyboard concertos 1,2,4!), and lastly Beethoven's sonatas 26 & 29 played by alfred brendel. my first visit to the library in eons and i found so many treasures... haha i think i wasted this year's subscription fee, i didn't even borrow much (cos i usually can't find much).

my bro and i decided to order canadian 2 for 1 pizza... lol we greedy pigs have always wanted to try their cheese supreme. it was nice considering the affordable luxury of $19.90 for two pizzas and free-of-charge delivery, except that something unpleasant made me feel quesy after dinner. three of the goldfishes that my dad keeps in a goldfish-bowl (according to some fortune-teller's instructions) in the living room had died... and eurgh, i had to scoop them out. *pukez* if there's anything i'm disgusted by, it's dead fish. it just turns my stomach inside out when they flop weirdly in the net while i'm trying to get them into the dustbin... it would have been easier if i used my hand to transfer them from the net to the bin, but i was too chicken. argh... disgusting! i mean, i don't mind touching the dead fish that we cook for food and all that, they're ok. it's just this sort of dead fish that i can't handle. haha this affirms the fact that i can't and never will be a vet (i love animals and that was my childhood ambition!).

my eyes are super tired, my brain is shutting down, and i just feel like doing absolutely nothing now. aren't people my age supposed to be super energetic and full of life? zzzzzzzzzzzz
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Friday, June 24, 2005
The 5 Things I Miss About My Childhood
Emily passed this to me...

First, the procedure:
Remove the blog at #1 from the following list and bump every one up one place; add your blog's name in the #5 spot; link to each of the other blogs for the desired cross pollination effect.

1. Loose Leaf @ http://looseleafnotes.com
2. Black Currant Jam @ http://blackcurrantjam.blogspot.com
3. Pei Yun @ http://oceanskies79.blogspot.com
4. Rantings of a Kontrabassist @ http://www.pinkified.blogspot.com
5. Debussy @ http://www.debussy.blogspot.com

Next, five things I miss about my childhood:

This really gets me thinking very hard. I can't seem to find five specific things I miss about my childhood. Guess I'll just write generally what comes into my mind. This is going to be a long post man... there are so many memories of my childhood. I'd advice you to skip it though, spend your time on other more productive things!

I miss living in the old flat... also in Jurong West, but "less west" than where we live now. One of the reasons was the neighbourhood... it has a more homely feel about it. There are no shopping centres there, as compared to Jurong Point here, instead there is a market square kind of thing. This consists of the wet market (with the food stalls lining the borders of the one-storey structure), a few coffee shops scattered around, fruit stalls, other shops selling all sorts of things, banks and the 4D kiosk which always has a long queue trailing out of it into the narrow pavement beside a carpark.

Every Sunday, the four of us would have our breakfast either at the market or at one of the coffee shops. Our favourite stalls included a yong tau foo stall in the market (my favourite, but it's quite expensive for breakfast so we seldom ate there), a fishball noodles stall also in the market (five big fishballs and a generous helping of noodles for just $2! though I think it's no longer so cheap now), a roti prata stall in a coffee shop, two vegetarian stalls in two of the coffee shops, and finally a dim sum stall in a coffee shop. We frequented this stall most often because you got to pick from a large variaty of dim sum and porridge etc... most things comes in plates of four (just nice!) and when you divide the total cost by four, it seems pretty worthwhile for a hearty breakfast.

After breakfast, we would go to the wet market. My brother and I would stay at a pet shop (situated in the row between the cooked food stalls and the raw food stalls) while my parents did the shopping. This row is made up of stalls selling flowers, fruits, and some drier groceries like curry powder, spices, tau kua etc. (Actually this says quite a lot about the hygiene level of the market... cooked food, raw food, and animals all in one place! Now I think the pet shop has been shut down for quite some time already, which makes it a tad more hygienic.) We loved looking at the furry animals and fish displayed there and we didn't like having to squeeze with the people and wet plastic bags in the wet market. It was also a plus for our parents because they wouldn't have to bother whether they lost us while we tried to follow them into the crowded wet market. Most times my parents just went in for a quick trip anyway, in those days we had all our meals at my grandma's house so we didn't need to shop for food. They always stocked up on fruits though, the whole family loves all kinds of fruits... maybe with the exception of my brother, who has a limited list of the fruits he eats. After the wet market, we would also visit the other shops if we needed to buy anything like stationery etc.

Another more important reason why I miss living in the old flat was because my grandma lived in the flat directly opposite ours... which is why we had all our meals there. Since after my mum's maternity leave ended, I've been deposited in my grandma's house while she was at work. I think out of the four of us (two cousins, my bro, and I) on my paternal side, my grandma took care of me most... mainly because we lived in the flat opposite hers while my two cousins lived in Bukit Merah. I only have a vague memory of my grandpa, he died when I was two... my brother doesn't have any memories of him at all (he's two years younger than me). I can't really remember events concerning him, but when I look at a photo of him in my third uncle's room, I remember his face from long ago. When I was in primary school, my grandma told me stories about how my grandpa always got impatient trying to put me to sleep in the sarong. No matter how much he bobbed the sarong up and down, I would refuse to sleep and he would lose his temper and leave me alone. My poor grandma would have to juggle the tasks of preparing dinner and at the same time making sure I didn't fall out of the sarong or anything. She also told me how, for some reason, I loved to shake my head when anyone talked to me... maybe I didn't understand them... and my grandpa would tell me to "nod [my] head, don't shake [my] head".

My brother was not so lucky, when he was born my grandma already had her hands full taking care of me... so he went to the care of a nanny living in the same block as us. He went there on a weekly basis, meaning he stayed in the nanny's house most of the time... my parents would bring him home on weekday nights for quite a short bonding period with the rest of the family and then he'd return to nanny's house for the night. He only got to come home during the weekend. This is quite unfair to him, but my parents felt they couldn't take care of both of us at the same time. Maybe it was because of me, they've told me how I simply refused to sleep when I was a baby... and my mum said she always got a shock when she woke up at night to see two eyes gleaming at her in the dark from my sarong. Haha tiger's predator instincts... lol. Both my grandma and my parents also had a hard time feeding me... I would only drink one quarter of what they put in the bottle before I stopped. I just wonder why I still looked so chubby in my baby photos? I should have looked malnourished instead. I think the whole thing was because my grandma is the kiasu type... my mum says she fed me like thousand times a day, during my feeding times, and then even during my non-feeding times. No wonder I always only finished quarter of the bottle and yet looked so round! And they always tell me, when we were young, my brother was more guai than me... apparently he never gave the nanny any trouble, except he had a weird habit of crawling around the house and bumping his head into objects. But they say he never cried, he simply changed direction and continued his exploration of the house... he always had blue-blacks on his forehead. Another oddity is that I never learned to crawl... I just progressed from sitting around to using the walker thing with wheels that are supposed to teach babies to walk (I loved to zoom around in that!).

When I went to nursery, kindergarten and primary 1 & 2, I would be at my grandma's house during non-school hours when my parents were still at work. My favourite activities there were to lie on her nice comfy bed while she ironed the clothes, watching TV shows during the afternoon (my main source of education on understanding and speaking cantonese), and watching her prepare dinner... sometimes I would clear away the things on top of a stretch of cupboard, hop on, and fall asleep there. My grandma always said it was a miracle I didn't roll over and fall onto the floor, the space was really narrow! I also remember afternoon snacks of the so-called "soda biscuits", along with the packet of milk distributed to us in school everyday. The main purpose of this snack session was to occupy me fully while my grandma took a shower... hahaha she didn't know that even if she didn't let me eat, I'd still stay rooted in the kitchen waiting for her because I was scared of being left alone in any part of her house, it seemed pretty eerie to me then! She'd also eat some biscuits after her shower... sometimes I was allowed to dip my biscuits into her black coffee (I love it!), but she always nagged that "little children cannot take too much coffee". My grandma also always helped me cut out the questions that came in worksheets to paste in my exercise books before I answered them in the book... she says I always made the edges jagged... and she also joined me when I had to colour pictures in those worksheets.

Most of my fondest memories of my grandma's house are of school holidays. Both my brother and I went there every morning when our parents left for work. We had lots of fun entertaining ourselves with make-belief stories and games. I think our favourite was sitting beneath the dining table and pretending we were in a space ship... we'd fly into space and have all sorts of adventures there. Of course my grandma was totally against this game, the table was supposed to be dangerous apparently because it would crush us if it falls. But that's a hilarious notion... the whole table is heavy (two adults are needed to carry it), and the legs are very firmly joined to the table top... it was impossible for two young children to topple the table, or for it to collapse for no good reason. Sometimes our two cousins also visited during school holidays, and then it would be more fun... we turned the whole house upside down with rowdy games invented mostly by our cousins with some suggestions from my brother. (They are older, so they had the last say in the rules though.) What else can you expect from three active young boys, games that didn't involve running around the house etc? And then there was another cousin... a girl, my third uncle's daughter. Sometimes she got to join in our games, but after a short while her strict mother would sternly order her back into their room. I never saw her or heard any news of her again after her parents divorced... everyone kept quiet about the matter because my third uncle was in a bad mood most of the time. Apparently her mum took her back to Taiwan. Our uncle later became our favourite relative, he doted on all of us and indulged us by joining in our games whenever he came home... possibly to make up for the loss of his daughter. When my brother started primary school, both of us went to a daycare centre during non-school hours... my grandma didn't want to take up the responsibility of taking care of the two of us.

I sort of miss how close my family was then. There was only one television set so everyone watched the same show together, when we got our first computer everyone had to share it too. Both my brother and I also had to study at the dining table with our parents keeping their sharp eyes on us... later when we had two computers, both of us had to do our 10/10 PC Tutor assessments at the same time (all in the name of fairness) to reduce arguments about who studied more or played more. Now there are two television sets, one for the living room and one for my parents' room... there are still only two computers, both in the study room, but we can't care less about what the other person is doing on the other computer. My brother and I had our fair share of conflicts too, most of the time I got angry at him because I felt that my parents doted on him more and I always had to give in to him. But we seldom argued, I seldom showed my resentment towards him... and when we were older he said he thought I was "a very nice sister", I was quite touched... after what I felt towards him! (But of course he didn't know that.)

Yep, we shared everything. We shared my bedroom until I-don't-know-when, when he moved into his room... we shared the piano and piano lessons (two-hour-slots during which we would switch from piano to theory after an hour), and we shared crayons etc during art lessons. I was always older than the other students during such lessons because my parents thought it was better to enrol both of us in the same classes... which meant our classmates were his age. The only exception was piano, which I started learning earlier... he started in yamaha before switching to my teacher. When he went to the yamaha thing, my parents decided to enrol me too, but I felt so stupid there because I'd already learned such things during piano lessons and they had silly activities (according to a person of my age). Swimming lessons were less awkward, I wasn't totally the odd-one-out because our class consisted of children from very young up till about my age. We also shared in our acts of mischief... when tamagotchi was popular, we couldn't see how we could convince our parents to buy them because they were so expensive! So we saved up and secretly bought our own... we hid them in the table drawer in my room (his table didn't have drawers) but later my mother found out.

In a way we still share things now, like the Harry Potter books... we share the costs and take turns to read. (We can't wait for the next book!) We share our tidbits sometimes, we just can't study without eating anything, especially without chocolate! My old school things are always passed down to him, i guess he's very gracious to accept them without whining about how he always has to use my old books (to think I actually jealousy thought I had to give way to him all the time). Of course I inevitably have to help him with school work sometimes, but I guess everyone needs help... he helps me get all the cracks and illegal stuff, things I'd never have found on the net because I'm not as resourceful as he is! We had actually planned to share the cost and use of a camera, but too bad, since I'm going to birmingham my parents decided to get me the camera to bring there.

Ok, sorry for the long long post rambling on and on about my family... I'm just feeling ultra grateful for them, especially my brother. And maybe some guilt for snatching away his chance of studying overseas, though he graciously gave it to me saying he wasn't thinking of going overseas.

Finally the tags. I pass this to...
1. Yushan
2. Pohning
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
finally
finally got the ucas letter for replying to the offers... after so long, and after i sent them the slip to cancel my application for King's (hoping that it'll speed up the process). shouldn't have bothered. the letter came with a rejection from King's... that means they may be reading my slip now and wondering why i sent it to them when they already sent me the offers/rejections from all the universities i applied to. bah... that's just how slow mail travels from there to here. i decided not to waste my money on speedpost and just reply to the offers online instead.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
spring cleaning day
i tidied up my room today! cos it was really in a super big mess and i felt like a slob for tolerating living in my pigsty of a room. now it feels good to have a clean and tidier room. it's so ironic... i hate cleaning the room cos i don't like having to wipe the dust off everything, but then if i were more hardworking in keeping my room tidy and dust-free then i wouldn't end up with so much dust to wipe! eurgh. digusted at myself for having left my room to collect dust for so long.

i found the nafa receipt while i was tidying up too -_-!!! oh well... two dollars and lesson learnt! i should try not to get my room into a mess again... haha easier said then done. bleah.

i was also testing out the camera we bought on sunday...
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
laptop
Got my laptop today, my cousin helped buy it a few days ago. waiting super long to transfer my things from the computer to the laptop... haha can detect lots of wireless networks but i'm quite an idiot at trying to use the internet by tapping on these, so just have to blog on my currently lagging compurter. i'm using winRAR, cos the thumb drive is not big enough to fit my files, and it's slowing the whole computer down!

at first we wanted to get the IBM ThinkPad X31 since it's small, light and effective enough but it was not in stock so have to wait dunno how long. my cousin decided the Toshiba Tecra M3-P2301 is good too, actually it's better... 512MB compared to 256 for the IBM. so don't have to pay more to make it 512. although it's heavier and bigger. but cos my dad kept telling him that the earlier we can get it the better lol. i just don't like the backpack that came with it, i'd have prefered a sling bag instead...

Toshiba Tecra M3-P2301 (PTM30L-01W00F) (New)
Intel Centrino mobile technology with Intel Pentium-M 740 1.73G, 512MB DDR2 SDRAM (1 piece of 512MB, one slot left) up to 2048MB; 60GB Hard disk (5,400rpm); Swappable SelectBay Combo (DVD/CD-RW) Drive; 128MB USB Memory Drive (5 years warranty); 14.1" TFT Active Display Matrix; nVidia GeForce Go6200 with 64MB DDR VRAM; 16X PCI Express; 1 Type II PC Card Slot; ExpressCard slot; USB 2.0 x 2; Fast Infrared; IEEE 1394; SD Card Slot; Parallel; RGB; S-Video TV-out; Built-in V.90 modem (V.92 ready) and 10/100/1000 Mbps LAN; Built-in 802.11b/g; Touchpad; Sound Blaster Pro Compatible Audio; Windows XP Professional; Microsoft Office 2003 Standard; Microsoft OneNote 2003; Macromedia Studio MX 2004; Notebook Backpack; USB Optical Mouse. 2.06kg (with battery pack and weight saver); Sleek stylish silver design with magnesium alloy casing. Up to 3.4 hours battery life (depending on usage). [3 years carry-in International and local on-campus limited warranty]
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
mepers outing
mepers outing today... it was a great chance for us to get together again, since we always seem to have clashing schedules. that was until we all stopped working haha. we had a nice lunch at billy bombers, during which we were so entertained by ourselves that we frequently burst out in laughter... haha not surprising since we all have a weird sense of humour and laugh at things others would think are perfectly normal. after lunch, we watched Mr & Mrs Smith at ps... haha a bit lame but funny and amusing. then it was time to go; emily had rehearsal, kankan and pohning went home, and i collected my cert at paragon.

reached home and checked my email for any reply from nafa... luckily, losing (or rather, throwing away) the receipts doesn't mean that i can't get the refund. it just means that i have to pay two dollars to them for printing new ones. *ahem*...

piano wasn't that bad today, but that doesn't say much cos i've probably been playing beethoven and szymanowski for ages! beethoven felt worse than last week, especially the fourth movement... i totally screwed up by tripping almost every five bars. haha and cos i "memorise without memorising"... (as in, the memory of the piece comes from how well my fingers know it and not from how well my brain can remember the notes)... i sort of just messed up lots of places after tripping. and for the first movement i totally missed out a huge chunk of the first variation... about 60% of the one-page variation! cos it's sort of in ABA structure so after playing "A"... i thought it was the end of the variation and went on to the next. =\ hahaha think she's so bored of hearing beethoven and szymanowski that she told me to bring new things after the class lesson week. which is bad, i have nothing to bring! beethoven op.78 is still in the playing-notes-only stage, messiaen is in a big mess and i can't play syzmanowski no.4 without stopping every few chords to check whether i got the right notes. probably about the most ready is poulenc, but it's still only about 40%-50% done. which says a lot about how bad the rest are i guess.
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
oh no
this is so bad... i sent an email to nafa saying i want to withdraw, and they said i can. sounds good so far? BUT for the refund i have to go to their finance department to fill in a form and i have to bring the original receipts for this. AHHHH i searched my whole room and i just couldn't find the receipts!!!! just emailed them... if this stops me from getting a refund of the fees my parents are totally going to kill me. bleargh. think i shall tidy up my room after mepers outing tmr and seive through all the stuff to see if there is anything. =( i bet it's already been burnt in the incinerator long ago, no thanks to my bad habit (?!) of throwing away receipts!
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
changed my mind
when i woke up this morning it struck me that i may come to regret my decision to stay here and go to nafa. i'd probably think back on this opportunity of going uk and regret that i missed the chance to do something i want to do. now... after changing my mind about a hundred times today... i think i want to grab this opportunity. guess i'll really have to slog to return the money, but i think i don't mind that. but not confirmed yet, the last i heard, my grandmother wasn't very happy about my aunt volunteering to lend me money for the 1st year. hope it can be settled soon...
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Monday, June 06, 2005
music day
tried to "eat music, breathe music and live music" today... haha practised a bit, spent the rest of the time listening to beethoven's sonatas starting from the first. cos i've always been slacking on the listening side, and "running on an empty tank". so i decided that i should stop wasting my time at home. the only thing was that i was super sleepy... slept like a log in the hot sweltering heat during late afternoon. bleargh can't stand the weather... but then again if it rains when i'm going out i complain too!

glad i didn't make a rash decision the other day. if i did, i'd probably be busy preparing everything for studying in uk. cos i would have made my decision according to what i feel like doing. but i guess after thinking it through thoroughly these few days, i know it's more practical to go to nafa because it's cheaper... and after the degree there's still a chance of going overseas. if i go to uk, i'd be tied down with debts when i come back... definitely no freedom. now i'm convinced it's not a total waste of time to have gone to tj instead of nafa two years ago. if i didn't go to tj i'll probably not be infected with the music virus =) thanks to the mepers! sighz... hoping we can meet some day. but then again, maybe not everyone will be free... *hint: pohning, u better be there!* haha ;)
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