*yawn* going to sleep... dun care abt chem tutorial liao... mr ong can think i got AP for all i care... should have slept earlier last nite...

just finished practising for tmr's recital... shared a cab with yuanling after theory cos just when we left the theory place, no. 14 went past us and it'll take super long for the next one to come. so i reached home at 9.15... 15 mins earlier than the usual. actually, not exactly "finished"... there'll never be a "finished". but enuff... my hands are starting to feel tired. not a bad thing tt tmr's swimming... at least there won't be push-ups and all the crap tt may jeopardize the recital.

going to sleep... must get all the sleep i can and concentrate very hard during recital. must not have concentration lapses! =P

*sigh in relief*... finally i know how to use noteheads for the drum set in sibelius 3... otherwise i'll still be staring at pages of weird notation. haha... now i need to find out how to put two movements together into one score. and start thinking about the other compo. bleargh... i dread editing compos... maybe it's cos when i write it's subconscious tt's why i dun really understand wat i'm writing. so dunno how to edit. but then i'm running out of time to write a new compo so might as well submit two edited ones.

hmmm... waiting for pohning to come online... she said she'd wake up ard 3-4 to start doing compo and promised to call me if i didn't wake up. now it's the other way round but i can't call her cos she didn't answer her phone... =P pohning! it's not effective... i think i'm more sleepy now than just now... but it's not a bad idea, at least i woke up and it finally dawned on me how to use noteheads... hahahaha. the inspiration didn't find me in my dreams though. 32 more hrs to go...

learning journey was so boring! wat's so fun about visiting high court? it's not as if we were allowed to watch a trial or sth. at least going for band would have been more productive.

recital's coming soon... since monday is not available and assuming the teachers will want it as soon as possible, it should be on tuesday. i'm not really sure whether i'm underpractising or overpractising... my beethoven is deproving at an alarming rate! but sculthorpe has improved and ravel is much better than on thurs. haha luckily i decided not to play it for my teacher on thurs... i'll be found guilty if she gets a heart attack hearing me play like that. =P

38 more hrs to the end of MCT! but that also means i only have 38 more hrs to do my compos and harmony. still can't stand my compo... it sounds super horribly terrible. er ok, yes i know there's no such expression... better start doing something to my compo now...

haven't been blogging for a super long time... waiting for inspiration to do compo now... hmmm i realised it's not really that effective to sit under the tree waiting for the apple to drop. and then there's the harmony paper... only just remembered while chatting with pohning on msn just now. oh ya, anyone knows how to get rid of the grey notes at the cursor when trying to input notes on sibelius 3 pls enlighten me, it's super distracting.

yesterday's piano lesson was quite inspiring... motivated to practise more. thought provoking too... my teacher was just talking about how typical singapore students lose the reactivity and emotions that come naturally when they were babies. and then she was saying we're very developed intellectually, but on the emotional level we're actually quite low (a nice way to say that my playing lacks emotions and reactivity...) so i'm supposed to try to "revive the emotions", according to her, by "feeding ur soul with the musical food it needs" haha okok... i know i haven't been going for concerts for quite a while... and all i've been listening to so far are concertos in the 19th century... again... =) and then there were also complaints that i'm very prone to concentration lapses... quite true... but then i dunno how to solve the problem... she tells me to concentrate on what i'm feeling while playing instead of concentrating on the notes. so i lose concentration on the notes and forget what comes next. then i concentrate on the notes and forget what i'm feeling... ????!!! watever... i shall try my best to concentrate on both.

tmr got learning journey... and i dun even noe where we'll be going. how "fun"... dun wanna go... but then again, if i dun go i still have to go for band. wat difference does it make? ok... back to doing my compo... about 60 hrs left...

haven't been blogging for a super long time... waiting for inspiration to do compo now... hmmm i realised it's not really that effective to sit under the tree waiting for the apple to drop. and then there's the harmony paper... only just remembered while chatting with pohning on msn just now. oh ya, anyone knows how to get rid of the grey notes at the cursor when trying to input notes on sibelius 3 pls enlighten me, it's super distracting.

yesterday's piano lesson was quite inspiring... motivated to practise more. thought provoking too... my teacher was just talking about how typical singapore students lose the reactivity and emotions that come naturally when they were babies. and then she was saying we're very developed intellectually, but on the emotional level we're actually quite low (a nice way to say that my playing lacks emotions and reactivity...) so i'm supposed to try to "revive the emotions", according to her, by "feeding ur soul with the musical food it needs" haha okok... i know i haven't been going for concerts for quite a while... and all i've been listening to so far are concertos in the 19th century... again... =) and then there were also complaints that i'm very prone to concentration lapses... quite true... but then i dunno how to solve the problem... she tells me to concentrate on what i'm feeling while playing instead of concentrating on the notes. so i lose concentration on the notes and forget what comes next. then i concentrate on the notes and forget what i'm feeling... ????!!! watever... i shall try my best to concentrate on both.

tmr got learning journey... and i dun even noe where we'll be going. how "fun"... dun wanna go... but then again, if i dun go i still have to go for band. wat difference does it make? ok... back to doing my compo... about 60 hrs left...