recital was very bad. it's the worst yet... even my sucky first june recital last year was better. slips and uneven notes here and there... that's still the usual. what was worse was the number of times i broke down because i got lost halfway through the pieces.

gave the rest quite a scare when i suddenly started crying after recital... they must have been shocked that the normally calm, composed and unreactive me was actually crying. i just couldn't control my emotions like i usually can. halfway through the recital during sculthorpe my eyes were already starting to fill up with tears but luckily i was able to hold them back until the end. i was very disappointed that i screwed up so badly... the slips and uneven running notes here and there were of cos inevitable, but i never expected to get lost in any of the pieces... much less almost all the movements of sculthorpe and 2nd movement of beethoven. i think it was a mixture of disappointment, anger and some shock... it wasn't supposed to turn out that badly. it was painful when suddenly i thought of all the effort i put into preparation for the recital... and yet in the end everything went wrong.

feeling better now... it always feels better after crying. and thanks to all of you who tried to cheer me up... doing stupid actions to the beat of yushan's recital piece. thanks really... appreciated it.