had a slack day today... after luis' recital we went to ljs for lunch. was initially quite reluctant to waste time and money but eventually gave in to temptation. argh... i ate the chocolate pie!!! oops! super sinful... luckily it was shared between me and pohning. got home early enough to have some spare time to practise. only did mozart... cannot make it liao... my hands are becoming weaker or something... just play a few passages and they'll start aching. something's wrong with me... my thumbs are beginning to ache like how my left thumb felt before mct recitals, only not as painful yet. i'll probably survive recital and then i think about two weeks later i may have to wrap both thumbs this time. it can't possibly be over-practising... how could it be? people can prac for 4 hours nothing happens... i just prac for half and hour start aching. doesn't makes sense lor.

tmr's games carnival... ensemble people excused for practice... which leaves me stranded alone... dun care... i shall leave at 12.30 sharp. not going to care about having to run at 6 pm. what crap! i dun mind running but could i at least be given some choice about the time i'll be running... it's so brainless to come so school and wait from 7.30... no, more exactly i reach school at 6.50. so wait from 6.50 am to 6 pm just to run 1 km! spent chem lesson dreaming about more enjoyable ways of raising money for charity... like pledging to practise for 6 hours instead of pledging to run for 1 km... at least practising for 6 hours is doing something productive. =P

recital's been postponed to friday... doesn't really make a difference. dunno what's happening, when i found out that it's been postponed i didn't even feel anything... i'm starting to feel numb about recital. not even touching beethoven or sculthorpe nowadays... die la. (okok, tmr i shall spend at least half the time from 6.50 to 12.30 doing only recital pieces.) like i told kankan... usually 4 to 5 weeks before recital i'll be super kan cheong but by 2 weeks before i'll start to become unfeeling. maybe it's cos of miss ching. she'll pressure u to get ur recital pieces right long before and then nearer to rectital she doesn't seem to care about them anymore... and she'll ask you to bring other pieces. has a calming effect cos it seems like she thinks the pieces are ready for recital. or maybe she's just sick of me playing the same things every lesson. haha i think it's more likely the latter. but nevermind, my self-delusional skills are superb. it still calms me down to think that i can move on to other pieces.

i'm having second thoughts about friday... actually we had planned not to go to school cos of the tower records sale... but now i'm wondering if i should. i quite desperately want to buy the art of piano dvd at a cheaper price... plus i wouldn't mind buying the super chor lor recording of K.365 played by radu lupu and 'what's his name'... argh... can't remember. although it's chor lor, it's not a bad deal cos they're very precise (how do they do that... they're not even brothers unlike the labeque sisters...) and at 20% off... i really wouldn't mind. on the other hand... it's a long day with lots of tutorials plus pe too... quite bad to miss all of them rite. sigh... can't decide whether or not to go.