i'm getting that feeling again... the one where u just wake up in the morning and dunno what to do, dunno how to spend the rest of the day... bleargh. not like i have nothing to do, i suppose i could have spent the day doing lots of productive things... just wasn't in the mood to do anything. and then i remembered what my physics teacher told us once, she said "don't waste your time girls, u wake up in the morning and stare into space, before u realise it it's lunchtime already!" so i tried to practise piano, but after ten minutes i just couldn't continue. mostly i was just feeling sian... and occasionally mixed with apprehension.

i can already hear in my mind the shrill voices of the san gu liu po asking, how was your results? eurgghh. although that may be because i answered their calls today asking for my bro's results. haha i was still telling him yesterday that i'm sure they'll call... and here i am, ending up answering those calls! oh well, as usual that slacker-but-still-smarter-than-me bro scored better than me... 8 pts. okay la, he's becoming a bit (just a teeny little bit) more hardworking... after going to ajc.

i'm also feeling quite lost. i dunno what to do... as in, i dunno what i want to do after getting my As. and then there's that feeling that i wasted two years in jc... though it was the most enjoyable years in my entire student life. hahaha enjoyable that's why i became so lousy mah... totally wasted the two years slacking away. now it's too late to regret it... i guess i shall see what to do after doomsday.

ended up taking a long walk around the neighbourhood in the morning. (huh? walking around the neighbourhood? has she gone crazy?!) walks just make me feel better. especially alone. hahaha still remember me and debbie always walking from mac's to ang mo kio mrt after band pracs on saturday. and then i bought a chocolate ice-cream and a big bar of chocolate from the convenience store... for lunch. (oi! cannot eat chocolate for lunch! not healthy!) ya, watever... and i continued snacking on new year goodies in the afternoon.

okay, shall go sleep... and hope i dun get weird dreams like last night! hmm... doesn't this eat-and-sleep routine just remind you of a particular member of the animal kingdom? ;D