who'd have thought that a little boy of merely nine years old... or maybe only eight... could do what others much older have not managed to do? no. i'm not talking about some great achievement here...

i'm just talking about how this boy actually succeeded in making me ANGRY!!!! argh. guess what i did for one and a half hours at tuition today. i sat there, trying to get him to learn his spelling... testing him on ten words over and over again, allowing him to look at the book every single time, yet even after such a long time he couldn't even spell a single word without looking at the book. i wouldn't be so mad if he was a slow learner who needed more help but was willing to learn... the point is, he didn't even have the intention to learn. yesterday he said spelling is on friday, but today he insists that i heard wrongly and it's next friday. that's ok, maybe it's my fault (though i'm perfectly sure it's not!)... but i just got so pissed when he didn't even make an effort to remember how to spell the words! each time i asked him to spell a word, he just read it off the spelling list... and all the time he pretends he can't find the word in the list, can't find his book when in fact he's holding it behind his back, needs to drink lots of water (half of his bottle) at one go... etc! okay, i know it gets boring doing the same thing over and over again and i understand why he feels lethargic, but what am i supposed to do when he can't spell a single word on friday? really felt like walking out of the door when at one point of time he just sat there and did nothing even though i asked him repeatedly to spell 'signature'... the book was right in front of him! i'm so sick of the ten words by now... thank-you letter... address... street name... postal code... country... sender... signature... recipient... envelope... postage... what crappy words to use for spelling! hmph, i'm not going to bother if he fails his spelling since he isn't even bothered about it himself.

ok, it feels great to let off steam like that... especially when i get more angry than i usually do. calms me down...