i'm dead... feel like a walking zombie all over again just like i'm still in school. if not for the pay, which is actually quite miserable, i wouldn't be bothered to do the paper work! what crappy things we do just because of stupid lazy parents who'll definitely complain if their children's particulars are messed up... even if they made a mess of the form and we've to make it acceptable for the machine. everyday is a routine... get to work, keep glancing at the clock from time to time and hoping lunchtime comes soon... hahaha and time to knock off of course!

left at 3.30 today... well actually 3.55, but since it's hourly pay... count as 3.30 lor. went down to kawai again. sounded like i wanted to die, was nervous even though i don't know why. adeline already heard me play yesterday so it's no kick playing in front of her and miss ching hears me every week... maybe it's just that at the exam venue i get quite freaked. can't play really soft there, if i control to much the notes won't sound and if i try to relax it'll be too loud! but heck, i'm going to use the una corda... guess it's better than sounding loud when u want it to be soft. i felt quite retarded on the piano when playing running passages... the notes seem to sound later than my fingers going into the keys. and the room was dry, my playing was not resonant at all... messed up lots of places. the usual... since when don't i mess up. i'm really waiting for that day to come man.

after all that, went to the little boy's house... my goodness, he's a headache! super lethargic, restless, fidgety, lazy... wonder how long i can bear with it. even if i can, i don't think lessons are very productive. after all the hoaxing and crap, we only completed 12 mcq maths questions and one compre. getting him to read the compre was a real test of patience... after the first paragraph, he just got so restless... took a long long time to finish the passage. and he didn't even pay attention at all, can tell cos when he answered the questions he just randomly picks the answers... like "one?" wrong "two?" wrong! why two?! ... and after explaining the correct answer, he still has that blur look on his face, while nodding when u ask whether he understands. but i still think he's quite a bright boy, just too lazy to think and guess he doesn't have the right attitude towards school work. his elder brother was quite different, saw him doing his own revision in his room... sigh... how do u get such little children interested in things that used to bore u when u were their age?!