the very first thing i have to blog about today is the irritating zap shop uncle again. felt like slapping him this morning... i tried to collect my copy of tchaikovsky concertos so that i can bring it home whilst i have lesser things in my bag. but the uncle stubbornly refused to let me collect it unless i collect emily's copy too... ok, if he's scared we'll just leave the copy there and not collect forever, i can understand. but what made me super pissed was that he started nagging about how mep always gives him lots of things to photocopy, and how we always leave scores there and don't collect. argh... u're opening a zap shop leh... dun want to zap for us we can always go somewhere else lor. and the tchaikovsky is the only thing i left at zap la, the rest are not mine and he just nag at me for them! and then he started complaining about how he has to wait for ms kang to collect the printing costs from us. as if we'll never pay him... argh. stupid man who totally has no brain... dunno how to run his business well.

the compo session with philip tan was great. more inspiring ideas and not as many mind-boggling questions as john sharpley. the weird thing is that previously he said he can't find the four-note motif my variations are based on... and now he doesn't seem to have a problem with that. he said i should just do minor changes to variations and then start recording. erm, which he said should probably be done by using the kontakt player to save as audio file since it seems very hard to perform the piece... which i agree. hahaha. by nevertheless i'm still going to try asking miss ching and miss gan if they want to help me play it, if not then ask gerald to help me ask his teacher and her sis. or else ask esther and jue ru if they still want to try practising it... and last choice would be kontakt player lor. just dun want to give up any chances to record live cos i may never get a chance to record my string work due to lack of players, and the jazz is so crap that i can't be sure if there would still be time left for recording after i finally finish it like who knows when.

just finished editing the variations... i think it has met my minimum standard, i still have lots of dissatisfaction towards it but i guess i better spend more time on the other two. i'm stuck at the jazz cos if i leave it as it was, it has no direction. if i want direction, i have to almost re-do the whole thing but i dun think there's time. as for my third compo, the more i edit the weirder it sounds... bleah.

ok, shall spend less time blogging and more time on the compos. time is running out!