i'm totally wasting away... haven't been working this two weeks since they're having common tests. so i spend time rotting at home, only practising a tiny bit and wasting the rest of the time. still doing tuition with the cute k2 kid... yay now i really enjoy tuition with him. he used to be quite resentful of me cos i suppose tuition meant that he got to spend less time with his mother, but now that he's gotten used to me he's really a bundle of energy and surprise every lesson! i don't think i'll get tired of him... and at least he's more enthusiastic about doing work than the lil vampire. i met the lil vampire's bro's tuition teacher one day... haha both of us were on the way to tuition, and the cute k2 kid was staying in her block. so now it's double the distance for me every mon and wed, and that means i have to gobble down dinner doubly quick! i always get there perspiring alot cos even though i've found the shortest route by cutting through other blocks, it's still quite a long way to rush... thought of taking a bus but there's the waiting time, and it's just a few bus stops away, plus i'll still have to walk from the bus stop. might as well save on the transport and do some exercise. lol since i'm slacking around at home all day.

thanks to pohning, i've decided to ask about study loans... to see if their repayment plan is ok. before that, my parents were totally discouraging. they said that it's not that they didn't want me to get a loan, but when i come back i'll be hundreds of thousands in debt. they were really against the idea. i was thinking, if the loan was repayable in ten years, assuming i borrow $200,000... i'll have to pay about $1666 every month. if i earn $2000 a month (hopefully), i'll still have about $333 left. that means i'll have to live frugally, but i think i'll be very contented with that if i have a chance of going overseas. so i msged pohning to see how she was getting on with raising money... see if got any lobangs mah, since she always sounded so confident about going to birmingham. she convinced me that it should be fine since moe is apparently rather short of music teachers so it'll be quite easy to get a job when i come back. i'm still wondering how to convince my parents. it's not going to be an easy task... money doesn't come easily for them so they're worried i may not be able to repay the loan. what if i can't get a job? they bombard me with so many what ifs... makes me so confused. but after all the confusion, i think i should just pluck up my courage and take a big leap. i'll never know if i don't try right. i'll try to talk to them again tomorrow.

but i still got to pay nafa by this friday... just in case everything doesn't work out, i still have someplace to go. at least i'll still get a full refund of the tuition fees if i withdraw within 14 days before term starts. yep, that leaves me with some time to settle the money stuff. hopefully it works. i'm not going to have high hopes on the moe scholarship cos during the interview they didn't look like they were very excited about giving me a scholarship... except one lady who was smiling and listening very attentively, and looking at me throughout the whole time. i know i'm probably not what they're looking for in a scholar la.

ok, going to sleep... thinking of going on a practising marathon tmr. cos my szymanowski etude really sucks. or maybe i should just say, everything i'm playing now is terrible. and lesson is on thursday! totally my fault for slacking away during the weekend... sigh

here's a quiz i did from pohning's blog... haven't done quizzes for a long long time!

Green You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature. Find out your color at Quiz Me!