Will be back home in eleven days!!!

Nowadays I'm just about doing nothing... going for chamber choir rehearsals that's all. Actually really quite diao to go also, cos there are only two year ones including me plus I'm not even a singer lor. But nevermind la, there are also some non-singers so I don't feel too out of place. Otherwise I will really have nothing to do for summer festival liao. I wanted to practise a lot since I'm so free, but it feels really weird to go to the practice block now cos it's so empty. Other than small chamber groups or duet-ters practising, there isn't anyone else. And then I'll feel so extra to be there. Like, 'What?! Why is some enthu-kia still practising when all the 2nd/3rd year recitals are over?!' (assuming they dunno it's a first year). Somemore I'm like learning new pieces also, play until really CMI... so I'd rather the practice block be full and noisy. Anyway, I'm very good at sleeping in late also la, that just gives me yet another excuse not to go to school hehe.

I have to start packing my stuff also. Packed two boxes so far, one has books that I'm not planning to bring back, and the other was for all the winter coats/jackets/whatever you call them. Haha they were so thick I had to squash them into the box but it's good that they managed to fit. Can't believe it. Time flies. It feels quite odd now thinking of leaving Birmingham for Singapore, but it's almost like the same feeling I had thinking of leaving Singapore for Birmingham. I think I will never be content living in any country cos each has its own pros and cons. I just really hope I will have the opportunity of travelling round the world, even if I do it in my eighties haha.

Hmm recently I just discovered that a Hong Kong friend and I really share lots of similarities. Especially that we don't want to get married and have children. To us, married = no freedom. Married + children = even less freedom. Haha I know it's really selfish of us to think this way. But from another point of view, we get to enjoy freedom without being selfish towards our family (as in, spouse and children). And both of us would really love to travel. Er actually who wouldn't? I think tourism must be one of the richest industries around. Ya, so family = no money/time to travel.

I think the main reason for both of us was that we feel very strongly about having personal space/time. We realised this when she asked me whether I'd prefer to stay with my parents if I had a choice and I said no. It's not because we don't love or care for our parents, just that we'd really prefer to live alone. The point is, you need to have the money to be able to live alone in Singapore if you're under 35. And people change. We realise that by our mid-thirties, who knows, anything can change. Haha what a nonsensical rant, I know I will never be able to buy my own house.

Anyway the point was that we found it quite amusing that we would never have thought of each other as the sort of person who doesn't want to start a family. I always get people telling me that I look like I'd make a good mother i.e. 'you look motherly' *puke*. Not like I don't like kids, actually I'd really like to work with kids but cos of the reasons above I'd rather not have my own. Ya. And so this friend also looks like the 'motherly' type (whatever you think that looks like haha). All these 'you look like ____' are usually stereotypes anyway.

Having conversations with this friend was both quite funny yet beneficial also. Haha cos I'd be trying to speak in Cantonese, but as soon as I've spoken a sentence I'll switch back to English. My Cantonese always sounds weirdly accented. Like when I try to speak English English haha. But hearing her speak in Cantonese was good cos my brain can actually start to try to think in Cantonese also so that the brain thinks of the sound of the words before I say them. Rather than thinking in English or Chinese and then trying to say what I want to say in Cantonese. Whatever, I know I'm just crapping on a lot of non-related and irrelevant stuff in this post. Just suddenly felt like typing something just now, procrastinating the packing mah.